‘ mental suffering or distress’

When all that is left after a disappointment of a relationship is Pain. You wonder whether crying at night or pretending to be happy will help you feel better. Always being bitter that you can’t be bothered to go through that process of knowing someone again. Even when you try to be positive but it can never be possible with a negative mind that has marked every guy to be a monster just out to hurt you with lies. If you ever love again, would it be different or will just be deja vu all over again. Even when you try to guard your heart, it seems like there is a manual that every guy you fall in love with reads that they end up hurting you the same way. The trauma of being lied to, ignored, being left out, cheated on etc leaves so many emotions that could possibly kill you.

“Scientific studies have shown that anger could increase your risk of cardiovascular problems and even cause heart attacks. This is because a sudden burst of anger leads to an over-the-top surge of chemicals throughout your body, like adrenaline and noradrenaline. Also, when your are angry your brain’s amygdale overact and causes the blood to rush to the frontal lobe, which is the area in charge of reasoning. This is the reason why anger can be blinding and makes you want to react violently.”

“Surprisingly, loneliness may be just as harmful as a sudden outburst of anger. As it tends to be long-tern condition, a lot like depression, it could even be a risk factor of early death, according to experts. Loneliness increases the levels of stress hormones like cortisol, which affects sleep quality. It can also give rise to your blood pressure levels. ”

“Shock or trauma of any kind can have lasting consequences on both your mind and body. In fact, psychological trauma can even cause changes in the structure of our brain, especially in the area where the frontal cortex. Emotional brains and survival brain converge.”

In life, there is only so much pain that one can take. Imagine losing your life and leaving that person behind, enjoying their life with another girl whom they are probably lying to worse if they are actually sincerely in love. I wonder how one can become numb to pain? Should I try to avoid boys in general or just be petty and hurt others like how i got hurt?

How do you guys deal with this kind of Pain? let me know xx Thank you for reading



The future has no guarantee but the happiness of today is certain. We have choices for the benefits of our lives but at times they seem like drawbacks however without them life would be so dull. Life is a rollercoaster got to have that up and down experience till you reach the final destination….

Tit For A Tat!!!

I always believed tit for a tat was childish but now I do understand that it is a fair game. Sometimes words don’t get to someone but actions do. I have always been a person that talks my mind and less action but I decided to try out using actions more than words. Just like a picture can hurt you more than a thousand words. I decided to use a picture also and there was silence so I guess it worked and it hurts me to have to do this kind of payback just to get my point across. It is quite satisfying as well.

Missing In Action

I would like to say thank you to everyone that has been reading my posts. Now I do realise I have been missing in action and I do apologise. I promise it will change just that at times life just gets in the way and you lose your motivation to write anything. Since I haven’t been to church my spirit has been down lately but today am going church and miraculously the motivation is kinda back. Once again keep reading and commenting…Thank you my lovelies x

I have come to realise that nomatter how much I try to accommodate people sometimes they are just not meant to be there. I try my best to see the best in everyone but some people just have this ugly aura around them that I can see the good in them being suffocated to death.  Now there is a saying in the bible ‘treat others how you want them to treat you’… if you come with that ugly aura around me do you think my beautiful aura will stand to accommodate you erm hell no! I can only give enough tolerance,kindness, care, love as I can get. I just don’t start throwing shade for no apparent reason but if you keep that nasty ugly rude as hell attitude then you going to get that shade not behind your back but in your face. If I don’t like you period It Is What It Is!