Life After Mourning

It’s been many years but it always feels like yesterday. People tend to say time heals all wounds but am thinking like did they mean to say that it takes a whole lifetime. It hurts today just as it did yesterday and it has been 10years already. 

Reminisce: Even if am no longer there or we part, am grateful to God to have loved you in this lifetime.

The last words, that have been buried deep in my heart. To think he was grateful to have loved me not even to have been loved. I wonder if reincarnation is ever possible in this life so I can meet him again. We were young but I feel my soulmate came and left me already. Day by day, I pray to forget you but it seems you already talked to God first before I did. However I will keep living and forgive me in advance and close your eyes if my wedding day ever comes to a pass 🙈. 

It’s still hard to live without you. I know love will never be beautiful as it was when I was with you. I am still waiting for a day that I will get over my sadness and stop drowning in my tears. Missing you is an understatement. 

I hope you keep resting in peace T and know that I am always grateful to God to have loved you in this lifetime.

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Reflect @21

In a few hours I will be 21🤗 so excited!!! 

However, I have been reflecting from last year when I turned 20 and till now when I am about to be 21. It has truly been a journey and it will also be a journey. I have had too many downs that it almost seemed impossible to pull myself up. I cried but I ended up being tired of it. I had a big disappointment when I failed to get into a course I wanted. I was so negative and depressed that I did not know what to do with my life. It was hard to think that I may become a huge failure and embarrass my family. 

God truly is God. There were doors in my life that I never thought they will be opened for me. I got stregth from my family’s prayers and decided to pull myself up and face my future. I got into a course I never thought would be possible but I found out that I may still be able to do the course I wanted after this. Truly some journeys are never travelled through a straight road sometimes you have to go up a mountain, cross rivers, face harsh weather but be able to concur through it all. It may take some time but I know I will get there. 

So Kuda at 20 I would like to say I am sorry for making you pass through such hard times but thank you for pulling through and believing In God. Kuda @21, you are now in university and it’s only the beginning. I don’t know what’s coming your way but always know God is with you and be happy through everything you pass through.

Finally, thank you to those that have been part of this crazy koo koo beyond repair sometimes normal but beautiful girl 😋 I love y’all. Happy Birthday Kuda❤️

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Being Merry

I would like to say ‘Merry Christmas ‘ even though it has passed but I was busy celebrating life. I know for a fact that for me to live and be able to write my own thoughts is through Jesus, the son of God. If not for his birth, mercy and grace would not be overflowing in my life. I am just grateful for the life of love and will forever be grateful. However, I would really like to talk to whoever is reading to be grateful for the life you have and deeply seek God for his mercy and grace never runs dry through his Son Jesus.

Thank you for reading xx